It’s been a hard year. I’ve personally been a part of a lot of good things including making it through my masters program with a perfect scorecard, taking on the challenge of a new and unexpected job, buying a new house that I literally never dreamed of, and making tons of awesome new friends. But, ultimately where I’m landing at is, that it has been a hard year.

A lot of those good things came with challenges, that while mostly surmountable, have made it a little hard to breathe at times. The disruptions, I am confident, were temporary and are in the rearview mirror, but what if they aren’t? I have always had a half full glass. I’ve always looked down at cynicism and negativity with much cynicism and negativity. Best foot forward is my BFF. Best intentions are what I assume everybody operates with.

This year is the year that my dad left the living and for that reason alone, this year will go down as one of my worst along with 2003. I don’t know for sure but I think that from the outside, I give off the appearance that everything is cool most of the time, but it’s been hard as fuck a lot of the time. But, I’m seven hours from making it out of this one – and next year, it’s on. New challenges. Harder challenges. Fight. Hope. Everything. As one of my co-workers likes to yell about 17 times per school day “LET’S GO.”

No need to worry about me though, worry about 2017 as it gets ready to assume it’s place in the landfill of history. My soundtrack to it being buried away is a loop of the last, furious one minute of “Rearview Mirror.” I should drink an AMF to you 2017.

Happy New Year and on to bigger and much better things.

I took a drive today
Time to emancipate
I guess it was the beatings made me wise
But I’m not about to give thanks, or apologize
I couldn’t breathe, holdin’ me down
Hand on my face, pushed to the ground
Enmity gaged, united by fear
Forced to endure what I could not forgive

I seem to look away
Wounds in the mirror waved
It wasn’t my surface most defiled
Head at your feet, fool to your crown
Pissed on my plate, swallowed it down
Enmity gaged, united by fear
Tried to endure what I could not forgive

Saw things
Once you, were in my rearviewmirror

I gather speed from you fucking with me
Once and for all I’m far away
I hardly believe, finally the shades, are raised, hey

Saw things so much clearer
Once you, once you

Saw things so much clearer
Once you, oh yeah